Friendship is the comfort, the inexpressible comfort of feeling safe with a person having neither to weigh thoughts nor measure words, but pouring all right out just as they are, chaff and grain together, certain that a faithful friendly hand will take and sift them, keep what is worth keeping and, with a breath of comfort, blow the rest away.

mun hong sent me this. :))) and i called him SH NOOB who is my good friend. haha of course, he isn't an SH NOOB but definitely a good friend. and suddenly, lately, i'm reminded of all of you guys, such wonderful friends of mine, and such a comfort to my life. you all bring mucho joy to my life and i love all of you hehe ^__^

I think this is the time to stop holding too much. Too much burdens and worries crowding in and this habit needs to be broken even this day. Girl, I really want you to surrender this shit right this moment this time and stop taking it back up. I want you to deny every thought that kills you; I want you to deny every feeling that breaks you, every suspicion that corrodes your being, every single little thing that ruins you. From this moment, enjoy. All around you is good :)

so i finally put away my stubbornness and went to see the doctor... and he said "stress ulcers all over your mouth" and "allergic reaction"! lol two at once AH. so i got a butt jab. i'm like you can say 20 and i'm getting a butt jab *hides in one corner emo*. oh well. i really really got to stress less and worry less about everything and be happy no matter what. NO MATTER WHAT. lol because no.1 stress reliever is of course feeling happy lah and no.1 stress cause is worry and emo! well, that's my theory at least. no one ever diagnosed me as stress before until today and i believe i had worked harder than this so work shouldn't be the cause. so yup, i just need to be HAPPY. that is the same thing goes with you who are reading this crap of mine. well, sometimes just got to maintain a mind that is willing to let go of things, forgive things, accept things, and be thankful for everything :) drink more water, eat some vitamins, sleep well, exercise, don't ever touch alcohol again, and all is well! think positive much! and and and smile more lah :) you happy, people happy, then you also happy lor and others whom you can't control, worry also won't help!

lol it's exploration week which means HOLIDAY. i have bloody a ton of assignments and supposedly some interesting things going BUT i spent the past 50 hours ON SLEEPING. every time i'm awake for barely 15 minutes, i feel extremely exhausted and just fell asleep on the floor like nobody's business. aiyo my holiday wasted. and everything tastes awful including my much beloved chocolate milk and strawberry yogurt because whatever i eat hurts my mouth like i'm eating rocks lol (imagine drinking milk and eating yogurt, and it still hurts like !@#$). and i even puked everything i ate in the past 6 hours in under 10 minutes. i felt like a hose = =. well at least i feel better now :) i ate like half a box of vidaylin mini bears (no, not HALF A BOTTLE. it's half a box lol. and yes in the past 50 hours as well, i puked some out but most remained.) HAH and yeah make my day by telling me you don't care but i just want to type out this rather remarkable experience. and i so do not want to see the doctor and eat medicine anymore ever in my life or at least for this year because i think last year was an overdosed period. okay bye.

aiyo miss lee left me halfway hanging after telling me a really distracting issue, she just left me on msn without a reply and the best thing she can do is facebook what i said when i'm still gelisah about what she told me. how nais. this is my public announcement to you and your cousin for what you did! LOL aish. i just hope would be more responsible in considering fully by researching fully before proceeding. other than that, all the best.

and tell me it's not just advertising gimmicks all these promotion of toa as being "leading" and "top" because it is very brave of them to claim so if it's a claim without basis. i don't see other art colleges in rather nearby surroundings claiming quite the same (yes, i've tried researching and the only prominent one who claims so is toa, but of course i only did the surrounding regions' ones lol, nothing too far away :p).

well well, yes, i know everything's going to happen for good and when things are supposed to happen they will, i just hope that it all results for good and i'm not only meaning emotionally good. so no need gelisah lah lmao. i shall sleep nao.

ps. since i can't do anything i should try and pray that to be guided to wherever that's best *lempang self with a slipper so that can k.o. now*

i don't know if i'm still tipsy or this is prolonged lack of sleep but i feel like i can't really think so clearly right now :S ahh give me a maths question now and i'd k.o. on the spot lol. ahh... i need rest, bye.

AND, i had fun tonight :) thank you siew lee, thank you lynette HAHA for the memorable picture. "i said india lah!" LOL woots