i. need. to. relax. chill. and. stop. the. anxiety. that. makes. me. work. til. 4. and. stay. awake. til. who-knows-when. from. worries. thanks.

last night i listened in on my mom & bro's web convo late into the night while i was doing my marketing assignment lol! and i felt so hug (i don't know whether it's i want a hug or i want to hug or what so hug will do it). we watched him put on a 1 pound knitted hat and paraded his 40 pounds zara jacket LOL and then telling us all kinds of nonsense. uhh heart-warmed heart-warmed.

lately, i paid a bit more attention on the people around me (yeah i'm rather ignorant at times :/) and i have discovered my own motivation to be a better person. we can only give the best to the people around us when we become who we're really made to be. that's what i keep hearing lately. and you know, we should stop looking in to dwell on only how we feel or what type of situation we're in. because we end missing out on how the people around us are doing.

We are products of our past, but we don't have to be prisoners of it

"Be careful of how you think; your life is shaped by your thoughts."

banana leaf, omg, tender mutton and that perfectly fried papadum served with an interestingly spiced rasam combo with those intense flavors on usually dull vegetables. and breathing in while scooping into your mouth white, fluffy, al dente nasi lemak covered with perfectly flavored rendang with that hint of wonderful lemongrass. asian food is the bomb with all those flavors. i just ate some really good banana leaf rice and never loved indian food like that, but loving it now. especially the shop which prices each person's portion at like 4.50 which in my opinion for banana leaf is cheap :S (my brother said it was?? :S). plus i love all the nasi lemak stalls in usj 11, they're the bomb. especially when it's still steaming hot, you just want to go like oh em gee....... because the rice is so soft and fluffy and the fried tiny fish which the name suddenly slipped my mind is like so wonderfully crunchy and the sambal had such a perfect ratio balance between the sweetness and spiciness and also the rendang made me want to cry because the way they adjusted those flavors are like mind blowing O__O. ahh food.... i need to go exercise more now lmao. and even now when i'm having this crazy huge ulcer in my mouth and i feel a bit like a sore throat is coming, i'm still thinking about it. arghh...

haha and i just spent 50 bucks on 398 pages of love <3 and i've been trying to really read lately. it's time to improve in our knowledge and grow people! my best investment this semester and buying more books can surely prevent me from lol simply using my money on crap.

"Have you noticed that things don't always turn out the way you want them to? That sometimes God has a better idea?" - Rick Warren.